I’ve been rather ill for the past few days and I’ve had the unfortunate attitude of complaint. Not so much about the sickness really, but about having to not only work, but have tons of work thrust upon me while I’m sick. There’s been a lot of yelling “WHY?” You’d think by now I would have learned about the power of gratitude, and I have. I’m working on it as I type as a matter of fact; listing and thinking of lovely things I’m thankful for. It’s the only antidote for a lousy attitude. Clears it right up. I wish I could clear up the sore throat but then…
The problem with asking stupid questions, like “Why is this happening to me?” is you tend to come up with stupid answers like “I just can’t catch a break” or “The universe/God just doesn’t like me” or other similar crap. This is all a long line of limiting beliefs and you know what it gets you? More of what you’re barking about. It’s a really hard habit to break sometimes when we’re miserable.
Since it’s my throat that’s bearing the brunt of my discomfort, I’m having to look and wonder if there’s anything that I need to say that I haven’t been. If I need to be speaking up for myself. Part of me wonders if all of this sudden business while I’m here is because of the fact that I forced myself to come to work out of fear that my co-workers would think poorly of me for staying home. Doing anything out of fear usually has gnarly consequences. If I had bothered to stay home and care for myself properly I wouldn’t be resentful of the sudden flurry of work hitting me while I already don’t feel well. “I’m sick dammit! Why can’t you leave me be?” Because you bothered to come in so you need to deal with what’s there. Duh…
Most importantly, whatever the case is, if I’m busy thinking about being grateful, I won’t be attracting more nastiness to complain about. So, today I’m grateful for England. Most days I’m grateful for England, simply because I adore English things. I have since I was a kid for reasons I can’t quite pinpoint and it’s been a lifelong thing. So, as a power step for myself, whenever I feel myself complaining or asking dumb “why” questions…that’s right…I’m going to close my eyes and think of England! Ha!
So really, whatever it is that you love that makes you happy the moment you think of it, use that to turn your crappy attitude around. Even if the situation doesn’t end right away, you’ll at least be feeling better which in the moment, is everything.